Tuesday, July 01, 2008

a personal update: doctors & books

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I've been meaning to share an update on where I'm at personally with various treatments and doctors for weeks now. First it was hard to write because my depression had me feeling low. Then it became hard to write because I was feeling less depressed and more engaged with other things. I guess I've come full circle now, and I'm finally ready to share.

I have an appointment this week with a local neurologist. My hope is that he will be willing to coordinate local IV therapy for me. I'm hopeful he will be willing to be part of it, but if he's not, I'm not going to dwell on that. It can't hurt to see him once and find out where his head is at. We might explore Botox
with him, too.

In a few weeks I have an appointment with a psychiatrist to discuss my medication situation. I switched from Lexapro to Celexa a few months ago because I wanted to try taking something available in a generic. I thought the transition had gone well, but now I'm not so sure.

Sometimes I'm confused about the status of my depression. It could be that it's perfectly normal to feel the way I feel given my circumstances. But it's also possible that I could have a much better quality of life if I was able to tweak my meds a little bit. I'm not sure what a reasonable expectation is for my depression treatment. I hope this psychiatrist can help me with that question.

I'm back to regular weekly appointments with my therapist after about a month of not seeing her. It's been good. I don't feel like I've let myself make a lot of progress and I appreciate her patience with that. I'm just not in a good place and I'm finding it difficult to do much more than hang on for dear life while life passes me by.

As I feel up to it physically and emotionally, I'm trying to pursue some small career-related objectives, looking into local Mindfulness Based Stress Relief (MBSR) classes and reading some great health-oriented books:

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