Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Emotionally-Charged Treatment Decisions


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I worry I'm becoming way too emotional about an important treatment decision related to my chronic migraines. I scan through one resource and feel encouraged and optimistic; I look at another and feel my body deflate in disappointment and resignation. Back down to earth, reality, slim odds.

I know in my head there are no guarantees and no cures. Just because something works well for other people doesn't mean it will work that way for me. I certainly know that well by now. But I find myself looking for that kind of assurance before I make a decision. I don't want to burden my family, our finances and my regular routine to try something drastic that may or may not make any difference. I especially don't want to have false hope.

I felt really good about the plan my primary care doctor and I formed recently to explore my options. But many weeks of daily migraines have left me with so little energy and focus that I'm wondering how I'm going to get through all the leg work necessary to do that exploration. I'm sleep walking through my life. I'm feeling too overwhelmed and tempted to just bury my head in the sand and handle the situation by ignoring it.

I know the answer I'm searching for is it utilize the tools in my chronic pain / depression tool box, but I'm feeling so defeated. I recently tried a new-to-me medication for migraine prevention that has left me feeling much, much worse. It's sort of broken my spirit and definitely eroded my hopefulness.


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